to think that i could have my way to everything.
nobody said it was easy.
i'm still trying to make things the way how i like it.
though i know i can't get things to be perfect at all times.i'm just human anyway.

sometimes,i am (this) close to finding my alter ego.
probably,it can be good.in a sense.
i mean,i love myself.
i've always learnt to accept myself the way i am.my unpredictable temper,moodswings.my ego(though i have an issue with myself with this at times).my ignorance.every single thing.
and further discovering myself,and my alter ego,i believe,won't do me any harm.

i need a peace of mind.serenity.and suddenly,i'm craving for the beach.
in addition to having a good company.

enough blabbering.i'll make the time for myself one fine day.surely.

i have the sudden urge to stock scented lavender or caramel candles in my heaven space.
and when it rains,and when there's nothing in my way,i'll light them up,place them on every inch of the room.accompanied with soft pillows,the sound of the rain thudding on the window panes and a good book in hand.
that'll truly makes me contented.

now,that's the reason why i love rainy seasons.

i've been craving for those girls.
but i guess,each and everyone has been too busy.
my egos aside,i miss them too much.
i just hope they're reading this soon enough.
i love you girls,and though i know i've been busy with my attachments and stuffs,i still have all the time in the world for you both,you know.
that can never change.and i guess i've missed out on lots of stuffs?and as much as i hate to say this,i don't even want us to drift apart.me and you girls.just don't forget me alright.
i miss us.

i guess i'm done for tonight.