i didn't want things to happen the way they were.
when i thought i was deeply in love with you once.
i once trusted you with all my heart,but it hurts when you don't get back that much love in return.
it damn hurts,a lot,mind you.
to think that i've cried on most nights when i know i couldn't even get to meet you as much as i wanted to;to even get to talk to you as much as i wanted to.
and even if we could,it was just short meet-ups,but that doesn't matter,cos every meet ups meant a lot to me.
maybe we weren't even ready to be in a relationship at that point of time.
maybe we weren't even sure if our hearts were really meant for each other.
after a while,somethings just made me realised,letting go was the best option.
it wasn't easy for me,i was in tears every few moments when i kept thinking about it.
my girls were my strength at that point of time,helping me pick up every little shattered pieces back.
but i've never regretted every single thing about it,cause i believe everything happens for a reason.
i still have you to thank for.
for coming into my life,for brightening it up,for being my shoulder to cry on when i needed you.
you still made an impact in my life,even when i got to see you for a short while in the afternoon,'the last short meet-up' after prolly 2 months since i last saw you.
maybe we are better off as friends,like how we used to be.
i still love you,dear friend.trust me,i still do.but its a tad too late.
cause i've numbed that little feelings i have for you to avoid getting myself hurt,yet again.
i'm moving on.and i'm giving others a chance to love me;for me to love them in return,and will never hurt them.cause it's enough with just once.
i just want you to move on,cause i know it'll be better for the both of us.mistakes were made,but its up to us to avoid from making those mistakes again.
but somehow,i still do believe,if we're meant to be,we'll be back again together one day.
for now,let's just savour what we have,and appreciate them.
but there's just one thing i want you to know:
though i've lost you as my other half,i don't want to lose you as a friend.just promise me you'll still be my friend after that 2 months,please?
i'm hoping for that.
and i guess i've said enough.
