it's the 31st,and in a few hours time,2008 is gonna end pretty soon,and everybody will welcome 2009.
ohh.how fast time flies.
i'm still wondering what's in store for me in 2009 though.
*cross fingers and gives a wide smile*

i spent my whole tuesday at the beach,with love.
chilling,picnic,cozying up and did some reading in the sun.
(and tuesdays with morrie is awesome,i tell you!)
and somebody did a good job with his macaroni goreng,trust me,it was super nicee,especially when it was cooked by a guy.
(and i find it sexy when a guy can cook so well,better than us girls.haha)
again,we managed to catch the sunset,but my view was blocked by the 'beware-of-the-things-in -the-water' sign.
and stars too.i love stargazing at sentosa,at night.
and something just never fails to make me smile yesterday,but i guess i'll just keep them to myself,shall i?(:

a new year,a new chapter in my life.
one step at a time,i shall take.(:

no new year resolution for me.cause i know i'm never gonna stick to them.i procrastinate a lot,still do cause i'm never gonna kick that habit no matter how hard i tried.pfft.
but a new year,a wiser me.hopefully!

and okie,maybe people will wonder what the heck is this girl doing at home,blogging on the night of new year's eve when everybody's out to have fun,watching the fireworks and stuffs?
haha.for the very first time on the night of new year's eve,cha's gonna stay-in at home,enjoying the company of my whole family.((:
cha malas lah.very the penat,and to think of the crowds and the aftermath of the celebration everywhere in singapore is,FUYOOOOO.

i'm gonna tuck myself in the sofa now.
waiting for the pizza and junks to come,and then the whole family will stuff ourselves while ushering the night together,watching the fireworks from outside our window as our house has the full view of marina bay,and johor's danga bay(cool kan!) before going in our room to sleep after 12am.
ahhh,WONDERFUL.(:

goodbye 2008,the year of joys and tears.
of the importance of friendships,relationships,and bondings.
of rising and falling,of loving and losing.
of everything.
the year which will leave a whole load of impacts in my life of twenty years.
thank you for everything.
and what more can i say?hello 2009!

lastly,
HAPPY NEW YEAR,EVERYONE!

♥ 7:53 PM

my friday before going off for training;Holland V with Syaz,Ir and Idah((:

♥ 8:51 AM

i didn't want things to happen the way they were.
when i thought i was deeply in love with you once.
i once trusted you with all my heart,but it hurts when you don't get back that much love in return.
it damn hurts,a lot,mind you.
to think that i've cried on most nights when i know i couldn't even get to meet you as much as i wanted to;to even get to talk to you as much as i wanted to.
and even if we could,it was just short meet-ups,but that doesn't matter,cos every meet ups meant a lot to me.
maybe we weren't even ready to be in a relationship at that point of time.
maybe we weren't even sure if our hearts were really meant for each other.
after a while,somethings just made me realised,letting go was the best option.
it wasn't easy for me,i was in tears every few moments when i kept thinking about it.
my girls were my strength at that point of time,helping me pick up every little shattered pieces back.
but i've never regretted every single thing about it,cause i believe everything happens for a reason.
i still have you to thank for.
for coming into my life,for brightening it up,for being my shoulder to cry on when i needed you.
you still made an impact in my life,even when i got to see you for a short while in the afternoon,'the last short meet-up' after prolly 2 months since i last saw you.
maybe we are better off as friends,like how we used to be.
i still love you,dear friend.trust me,i still do.but its a tad too late.
cause i've numbed that little feelings i have for you to avoid getting myself hurt,yet again.
i'm moving on.and i'm giving others a chance to love me;for me to love them in return,and will never hurt them.cause it's enough with just once.
i just want you to move on,cause i know it'll be better for the both of us.mistakes were made,but its up to us to avoid from making those mistakes again.
but somehow,i still do believe,if we're meant to be,we'll be back again together one day.
for now,let's just savour what we have,and appreciate them.

but there's just one thing i want you to know:
though i've lost you as my other half,i don't want to lose you as a friend.
just promise me you'll still be my friend after that 2 months,please?
i'm hoping for that.

and i guess i've said enough.

♥ 1:08 AM

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See,you got no say at all.

ahhh.LOVE.

♥ 9:57 PM

parkway parade;town;bugis.
dresses;shorts;ligerie;belts.

yes.yes.i went shopping!
on a Christma Day!haha.
thank you mama!
i love you!
(:

♥ 10:10 PM

let me just list down somethings which i know of myself.

1)i love being alone.but being alone when i'm having pms,is suicidal.(kan girls,kan?haha)
2)i tend to wake up almost every morning,having morning sinus,and keeps sneezing till my nose turns red(irritating,anda tau tak?)
3)i love french fries.but whenever i have them,i'll tend to choke on them till my face turns bright red,or i'll have sores and ulcers on my tongue.(the besties knows me better cause they are always with me when i have them.and that's the reason why i'll never have french fries when i'm on a date.gaga.)
4)i like people watching.i can just sit on a bench and watch people pass by me for a few hours without getting up.
5)i love dates on beaches or anywhere,lying on the mat.watching sunset and stargazing and just doing nothing,while being with someone you are very comfy with.(as i've never been on a date like this before,that's the reason why i love my past two saturdays.ohohoh.butterflies in my tummy!)
6)i love my family,because i know they love me better than anyone loves me.
7)i love having my two besties around because i love getting pampered or 'manja-manja' with them.(awww..i love you girls)
8)i love kisses on the forehead,and on the cheeks.(sorry eh,only i,will decide who can kiss me.haha.)
9)i love to lie on my bed and watch the sky at night when i have nothing to do.
10)i love getting morning messages(especially from people i adore)because it'll simply makes my day.
11)and lastly, i love myself,my life and every single people in it.(alhamdulilah.thank you,dear god for giving me the life i'm having!)

currently,i'm deciding on what to wear to the party later this evening.
i'll be having some fun(NOT!)choosing my dresses in a while.
bpprr.

oh anyway,have a good christmas eve evening,people!
let your hair down,cause,it's a HOLIDAY tomorrow!
*jumps around,tossing my pillows*

haha.
and i'm out(:

♥ 4:35 PM

Tuesday with my girls and a rocker.
singing our hearts out,dancing ridiculously.
had McDee after that.
chocking on french fries till my whole face went red(i've always been allergic to them but heck,i'll just eat them till the tongue gets sore)but i could still continue singing.
and i felt so good.

sometimes,you just can't help but to miss.
missing the way everything was,once.
but things have to change.
changes are inevitable.
and that's how life goes.

and no wonder i feel so cranky today.
sorry girls for the sudden change of mood in the beginning part of the day.
i wasn't at all feeling good.
but still,i had so much fun.

♥ 10:31 PM

days have been so good i don't even wish for them to end.
and i've been in love with my past two saturdays.

let it just remain as it is.
*all smiles*

and christmas and end of year sales are here!
since i don't think anyone can fulfill anything in my christmas wishlist,might as well i do my own shopping! =D
( oh!and that reminds me.thank you girlfie for the cotton on body black top!:) )

and mama!i want this camisole from la senza,pretty please?((:

ooh.and rachael starr is awesome.
i don't even think i can get enough of her sounds.
(:

♥ 10:31 PM

♥ 11:13 PM

i kept denying the fact that 2008 is ending pretty soon.
it seems like a blink of an eye.
2008,has left me the greatest impact of all time.
i had fun.
i've learned to love.to care.to lose.
i've broke a heart,i've broke my own heart,and am still learning to mend it again.
friendships were made.
bonds grew stronger and thicker.
i've learned that letting go is the best option sometimes.
i rise,i fell and i'm still learning to get up again with my two own feet.
but whatever happens,at the end of the day,somethings will just make me realise,the beautiful state i'm in.

had a talk with an old friend yesternight.
and i realised i do miss him at times,still.
but there's nothing more we could do to mend everything back together.
mistakes were made,and again,i've learnt from it.

'kalau ego i sebesar gajah.dh lame i buat bodoh aishah.tapi too bad lh kn.ego i tk mcm gytu'

after all that has happened,i'm still so glad for certain things.
he is a great guy.and still is.
my lost,but there's no regret about it.because i believe,everything happens for a reason.

and dear friend.thank you for all the advices(oh,yes.i'll only take the good advices,hokay!haha)
and i'll surely ponder over all of them.
someday,insyallah,if our paths are fated to cross again,we'll surely meet again.
maner tau orang tu dah ngendong anak ke.orang kat sini dah jadi successful businesswoman ke.dah kawin dengan anak datok ke.
haha.
but yes,all the best in everything you do.
whatever it is,jangan luper orang kat sini kalau dah nak kawin eh.pls eh.kad jemputan kasi eh.
=p

so,i had too much fun after the last paper last week.
and i'm awaiting for this weekend to happen!
(awak,awak excited nak jumpe kiter eh?hahaha.)

and senoritaz!
biler nak kluar?
and we have not even plan for the belated birthday thingy yet.
cepat cepat!anyone,call me up,okie?
i miss you girls so much!
(:

oh and ps/i am so freaking broke!
mama's been so petty about my spendings nowadays cos i spent more than what i earned.
i might just have to get a new job soon.

and lastly,2009!
come soon pretty please?
and i'm still wondering what's in store for me..*smiles*




and this song sucks the laughter out of me.freaking irritating i tell you.
my lovely girls,biler nak melalak lagi?
next time,techno pulak eh?
haha.
and i'm blardy envious you girls are gonna have fun on a friday night,without me!
grrr.
but still,i love you two.jaga diri baik2 bila dekat situ okie.(:

♥ 7:49 AM

Sunday,was all good.

♥ 11:45 PM

an evening over at island creamery with pals.
heavenly mud pie.( thanks for the treat,friend(: )
nasi pattaya over at adam road food centre.
ahh.food.glorious food.

finally,school's out for 3 whole frigging weeks.
i love it.
like they said,let's ROCK!

sitting alone and pondering over things that had just happened.
i just realised,people may come and go in our lives.
some do stays,but only for a while.
and some stayed for a very long time.and still do.

extracted from delilah's post on 12/12/08:

Darlene Dear, I'm so happy to see you happy now. I told you, you're taking the right move. For now, enjoy life okay and smile always cause you look good when you smile.

Always remember this okay: "If I'm strong enough to face all these problems, why can't you be strong just to face that one problem?" - Delilah.

aww girlfriend.
thank you for always being there.
you know,you've never fail to always make me feel good,and to look forward to brighter days ahead.
and that's why i love you,girlfriend.
and yes,if you're strong enough to face everything,i am strong too!(:
not forgetting you too,darla.
i love you girls oh-so-much.thank you!((:

i guess i'm just lucky to have all the love in the world!
my darling A-Bi-Good girls.my ever lovely girls;SENORITAZ.Wonderful family.Fun-loving friends.
see..what more can i ask for?
i'm just so gay!
(:
oh and ps/meet up soon,senoritaz.i know you girls are planning something for Dina's belated,right?

and like finally,i can get a get a good night sleep,as of tonight!
will be having training tomorrow morning and will be out the whole day,with lovelies and an evening exploring marina barrage with my dear friend,hafiz!
i'm so excited!





and gah.i just need a little shopping once again.

♥ 10:33 PM

i didn't get to sleep well the whole of yesternight.
the alarm clock kept on snoozing from 4am onwards,but i refused to budge up until the phone blared so loudly,a wake up call from hafiz,which in any sense,forced me to move out of bed and mugged my ass out.
haha.thank you hor hafiz.
i know i sounded pathetic very early in the morning.haa.
and don't worry,you didn't disturb me from any good dreams.
gah!

Proteo paper really sucked the hell out of me until i was mentally drained out.
and doing a last minute revision,again,was never enough.
gawd,i certainly did not learn from the past.
and sitting purposely beside dhuha,was a bad idea,as it really made me feel at my worst cos that boy really looked very confident.and i was VERY intimidated.hahs.
oh well.it's done anyway.
i just hope tomorrow's paper will be much more manageable.
amin.

♥ 6:21 PM

♥ 10:06 PM

first up!
Salam Aidiladha to all muslims(:

like always,raya,eventhough its raya haji,isn't complete without the usual dishes.
so like every single year,went to nenek's house in the afternoon,ate like countless times,crapped with the cousins,played with aley,slept,watched the programmes on suria and went home feeling gay.
i love my hugee family.(:

my sunday was spent window shopping,and a little shopping for hafiz since he wanted to look for his dad's birthday present.
i've gotta admit its been a long time since i went window shopping in town.
and town is so different until i got lost while looking for hafiz after alighting from the train.pfft!
and thank you dearest hafiz for being a 'girlfriend'(okie you would be sad if you read this cause it might sound gay for you.haha.) for the day!
from far east,walked all the way to bugis(he shopped!),roamed bugis village,bugis junction(which,we finally got his dad's prezzie there,and of course,he shopped,again.haha.).
and i was so freaking geram with the dresses we saw along the way but i just have to wait until the end of the month.
and finally,we stopped to have our late dinner at arab street,had little chats and off home(thanks for waiting with me for the freaking-lambat-bus-which-took-forever!)
for the aftermath,my legs were aching because of the few hours non-stop walk.thanks uh hafizzz. but still,i had a crazily good sunday evening with that boy.
ps/a jog or a run or a chilling session or stargazing session at bedok reservoir,next.jom!
(:

i bet np-ians are really mugging like hell these past few days!and tomorrow's officially the start of common test.
i've got to study.study.study!

erm no.maybe i should get a little bit of sleep first.


and and and,the girlfriend's back!alhamdulilah.(: it wasn't the same when she wasn't here during the weekends.nobody to kacau me with messages like she always did.i missed her.

anyway,good monday night,loves(:

♥ 11:07 PM

its beautiful.and i still am pretty much in love with this song.

♥ 9:03 PM

it's saturday again today.
weekend weekend weekend!

so just now was my first time eating at simpang bedok.
and dearest friend,thank you very much for the supper,okie?
it was good.
and though we didn't get to finish up the food sampai the ice cream melted like nobody's business,i love the place.
and the chats while eating,was funny.
and mister,i think you're better off with that specs of yours.
and please eh,lagi skali,lazy eyes bukan mater 'keroh',hokay.
gah!

i decided to stay in today.
god,the nose is killing me.

and thinking about the holidays i'll be having after the common test,i wish i can have all the time to spend with my girls,my senoritaz(i'm missing them so much.and syaz baby,nak kidnap,kidnap je.hee.)and other lovely people(:
and i'm still deciding whether to perform at ngee ann city on the 20th or not.
maybe i shall.

these days,i've watched too many rise and fall.
maybe it is just not a good week for some,but somehow,things might just get better.
i love you carrie,and no matter what happens,though i know my attention span for you was too short at times,i just want you to know that i am always here.
wipe your tears baby sister,cause you deserve better than this.
trust me,heartaches are only for a matter of time.
people will move on eventually.time will heal everything.
if something is meant for you,it'll eventually comes back to you.
so don't ponder too much about those things,and take good care of yourself.
i promise you,we'll have fun after our papers okie sayang?
((:

its nice not to have to care about things,finally.

and maybe,you might just want nothing to do with me.
not at this time,though.(:

♥ 1:52 AM

i love love love my natural curls!(:

anyway,i had a very hectic weekday since monday.
but ironically,i don't even know what had i done till i got super tired.
haha.

i missed my work on tuesday for waking up late.
and i've been spending too much time with my girls and i guess i had too much fun until i think i need to get down to mugging before it's too late.
but the thing is,i keep procrastinating.
maybe i should just wind down a bit.
and girls,motivate me please?
you girls better know you're my drug,so after all the studying,we'll have fun again,okie?
sayang sayang korang.

and,one of the girls are going away,again.
pfft.
but again,come home safely,ya?
(:

there's just too much things to rant,but i guess i'll just save it for another day.
it's finally thursday today.
no school,no work,so i must use my free time wisely.

and alhamdulilah.life has been good,i just hope it'll stay this way for as long as it could!
(:

and gosh,listening to this just makes me happy.((:

♥ 12:58 PM

my monday,is good!
can i say,i sooo love today?
(:

anyway,something just made me paranoid.
i bled like hell while i had to answer nature's call early in the morning.
i accidentally looked into the toilet bowl before flushing,and i thought it was my 'usual every month thingy'.
but yah,it wasn't.
i don't know what is happening inside my stomach though.
and the throat does not get any better,i often coughed like mad once in a while.
hmph.
okie dhilah,i know i should go to the clinic soon.
takmo marah uh kak.i'll go very soon,okie?(:

i still think smiling at your phone while texting,is super crazy.
but i know sometimes,people just ca't help it,right right?haha.
okie,sorry for being so random.

and something just touched me so badly,i could cry.
though people would tend to say the world isn't acting fair to them,i think otherwise.
after all,everything,do happens for a reason.
and to that particular person,stay strong alright?
really,i feel you and if i could help in anyway i can,i will.
and i'm sure things are gonna be okie for you,insyallah.

arh.time for bed!
i'm dead beat after the looong day.

goodnight world.

♥ 11:46 PM