certain things keeps me getting so agitated again and again today.
just like they said,a hungry girl is an angry girl.
so yeah.
i spent one whole day at home.
it was good,cause it's been a long week.
and the past few weeks drove me nuts.
i was fatique.
too fatique to even care about things.
and no.i didn't even care about food.
i only ate my breakfast early in the morning,and that was it.
i thought it could stand me up till tomorrow.
but no.my stomach churned real bad by the evening.
i was trying to control it with all i could.
there wasn't any food at home.
and even if there was,it will not satisfy my angry tummy.
so,i waited and waited until i couldn't stand it any longer.
carrie wanted to call McDee but papa wouldn't let us.
i was throwing tantrums,unknowingly.
and i insisted to just call McDee silently,without papa knowing.
we did,and we requested for them to be sent at the lift lobby.
and our intention was to finish them off at the void deck.
when the phone call was done,i was happy.
BUT THEN.
papa somehow knew about it.
he was pestering us to tell him what we did.
ah.a father's instinct.
we thought he would blow off his top,but he told us to order for him and the rest something too.
gah!told you,the whole family is hungry.
ego ego.
and when the food came,it was all devoured in just 10 minutes.
tsk.
but i am very happy already now.thank you mr McDelivery(you're cute by the way.hahaha).(:
and ohhh..i gave my baby lappy a face lift today.
and it looks super good i wish i could just kiss it to sleep.
*muahhhh*
at times,there's just this urge to let everything out.
to ease this little thoughts in mind.
it makes me still so uncertain about things.
things which had been so wonderful i don't even wish to let go.
i can be patient,but i don't even know for how long do i have to put up with it.
i'm weak.
i don't even know the real feelings right now.
i wish things could stay just the way they were a few months ago.
it was beautiful,and it even got me falling deeply into it.
but somehow,things changed.
and it has been killing me,slowly,yet silently.
is there any way i could change it back to the way they were?
cause if i could,i would gladly love to.
bring back those moments when i fell very much in love.
with you.
