STATUS:CURRENTLY BUSY!

spring cleaning of the whole house:PENDING
last minute shopping for accessories:NOT DONE
Tomorrow:HARI RAYA.

gagaga.
i'm going mad.
thanks eh,thanks.

and one more thing,i managed to fast for the whole month!
thanks to the monthly thingy which never come.
woaahh.
my hormone's going haywire,eyh?
(:

Meanwhile,to all who's celebrating Hari Raya:

SALAM LEBARAN!
kepada semua,salah dan silap,terkasar bahasa,tercaci,termaki,terpukul,tersepak,tercubit, tercium,ter-raba,terpegang dan ter-ter yang sewaktu dengannya yang tidak disengajakan mahapun yang diesengajakan,harap dimaafkan.
Maaf Zahir Batin.
Salam ikhlas,
saya
(:

♥ 11:00 AM

Good Morning,Sunday!

♥ 10:14 AM

i've been doodling nonsense in my notebook the whole afternoon.
and it feels good cause i just feel like a 9-year old kid with nothing to do but to write scribbles or draw stick figures in her little scrappy notebook.

i found my little book of quotes i once had amidst a pile of secondary school books i kept inside my black boxes.
flipped the pages,and i'm still amazed at myself on how i had used the book to pen down all those wonderful quotes i stumbled upon while reading novels or literature textbooks back in those days.
and,one caught my eyes:

ah..dreams dreams..
true,ain't it?

♥ 3:24 PM

i wish the night doesn't have to end.
i am,so in love.









here's to the night.
(=

♥ 1:26 AM

looking at all the past photos of us,i couldn't help but to smile.

♥ 1:21 PM

there's so many things i want to do right now:

1)eat chocolates like there's no tomorrow.
2)stargazing on a big field/by the beach,alone,at night.
3)sleep for more than 72 hours without waking up,even to the loo.
4)buy all the chocolates in the world.
5)go to the playground and play on the swing/see-saw/slide.
6)bite and make holes on my pillow case(which is impossible cos mama's gonna kill me.)
7)have the tv to myself for 24 hours(or more) and watch all the spongebob squarepants series without stopping until i can die from laughter and tears.
8)keep jumping on my bed like a 4 year old kid until i get tired and fall asleep immediately.
9)bite my hair ends.
10)walk/run/crawl around the house 100 times.
11)cut my own bangs and dye it pink/purple/blue/yellow.(and you'll get to see papa going berserk and runs after me with a tub of black colour Nippon Paint,working beautifully everywhere)
12)dancing in the monlight with nothing on.(you're welcome to smack your forehead,bby.but you know i prolly will never do it.i think.erk.haha.)
13)walk into many many designer shops and try on all their clothes,but not buying it cause its beyond your hopes and dreams and sweats and tears to own one.
14)count all the goats at Hay's Diary farm,and kiss them one by one.
15)oh and lastly,eat chocolates,like there's no tomorrow.


*looks up*
except for 1,2,3,5,7,8,9 and 15,i'm probably not in my sane state IF EVER,i repeat.IF EVER i do them.
but who knows what i'm capable of.
nyehahaha.
(okie,enough silly girl.)

one confession to make:i think my fetish for chocolate is back,eversince i tried cutting down on them tremendously like,erm,since last year?
it has always been my addiction,my saviour,my source of comfort,until the pact i secretly made with myself not to have them on regular basis.
but now,i cannot tahan anymore.
not until the chocolate cornflakes moment eversince yesterday.
and it doesn't even help when at this moment,my fingers rakes of chocolates.it lingers everywhere on me.
ah..for the love of chocolates.
sweet sweet chocolate.
oh folly,just let me dip my fingers into a bowl of chocolate and savour them(without any interruptions/distractions/or what have you),and i'll be the happiest girl on Earth,trust me.

now now,let me just end it here.
bonne nuit, amours.


and to you love,will see you tomorrow,perhaps?
(:

♥ 11:58 PM

wasted,terlalu wasted.
oh crap,i simply hate this feeling.
),:

in the evening,mama baked her almond cornflakes cookies and i did my chocolate cornflakes.
chocolates,always been my source of comfort.

and dear cousin danny,happy birthday to you.
study hard hard,and will meet you and your fam again soon.
(=






i am,very much missing you.

♥ 11:05 PM

the evening spent with my lovely girls,was what i had looked forward to.

♥ 11:09 PM

i'm pretty much excited and elated and (insert more vocabulary that has got to do with the word:excited) at the thought of meeting those two wonderful girls of mine tomorrow.
break-fast together,and stargazing,yea?
romantic sungguh kamu kamu nie!*big smiles*
just pray and hope that it won't rain tomorrow night though.
amin!

still wrecking my brain to decide on what i'm gonna wear for the first day of raya since i did not buy any new clothes this year.
kebaya is a big no no for me for the first day because i simply insist on wearing baju kurung to start the first day of syawal with.
but,my baju kurung collection(chey,collection eyh),is very limited.
so i guess,let's just see what i can grab and wear on that day.

and lastly,i'm gonna save my eyes from the bad bad mr eyebags.
before they gets worst.
pfft.

Carrie:"who's farhadi?is he edible?"haha.irritating kape..(and please stop making my leg like your drum machine,yet again.dah kenaper eh?pfft pfft.)

♥ 8:00 PM

saturday was my shopping day in jb with mummy,cuzzy ziera and fam,wak yani and fam.
the weather was HOT,and boy,we were almost complaining about this and that and when the time came for buker,we really gorged.
haha.
not really gorged,but it was heavenly to get to drink few cups of water after a HOT day.
and so much stuffs were bought until the whole car boot was filled to the brim,ohhh.
and not forgetting lil princess,cause i played with her all day,in the car,in angsana,everywhere.
i felt like a little kid whenever i'm with her.
and really,i just love cuzzy ziera and the family(:

today is sunday,and what did i do?
nothing.
my usual sunday nothing routine.
but i've watched my favourite A Walk To Remember again,for the umpteenth times in the evening.
beautiful story.never fails to get me smiling and shedding tears at the same time.

and timetable's out for the next semester.
not bad,considering the fact that i only have lessons on wednesday(9am-5pm,with 3 hours of break in between) and friday(9am-3pm,with no break),only.
i seriously think,i need to get a job.
cause i'll be having so much time to spare(and daripada kasi habiskan beras kat rumah,might as well i earn my own decent income too..).
and to add on,mama said this to me in the morning,"kak,cepat lah keje,boleh tolong mama with the duit pasar and the household income skali.mama dah penat nie."
haha.mother,mother.
just you wait,hokay mother?
(:

10 more days to raya.
gotta start baking cookies soon.
and cleaning the house soon.
and everything soon.

and oh period period,don't come soon please.just 10 more daysss(impossible,i know)..=p


and sister,you're really freaking irritating.
stop singing with your out of tune voice and making my leg like your drum machine please.
last warning eh before aku cubit kamu.
pfft.

♥ 8:49 PM

so,my thursday afternoon,(after dreadful lab session),was spent at bukit merah,surrounded by people and bikes,playing with cute birdie,took naps(thanks lovely),hot weather.ah yes,interesting day.haha

and that's my thursday night with lovely people.and again,the world is very small,indeed(:

♥ 11:58 PM

wonderful,you.

i'm missing the girls but i've always felt so much better after having those lil chats with them.
these days,for every few seconds without talking,there's always this huge humongous box of things to spill to each other.
and next week girls,please?
buker together,and you girls need to teach me how to put on basic make-up!
gagaga
(:


oh and dyla,aku nak lollipop eh.
yang macam dalam kotak tu jugak. dengan ribbon2 skali.
terima kasih.

♥ 2:51 PM

that shitty feeling.
when you know that everyone's ahead of you,but you're left behind to complete the final leap all by yourself.
i don't like this feeling at all.
if only.if only.
but i guess it's just too late to even be realising it now.

and Bby,please just don't give up.
just do whatever you can to have that last chance again.
i'll always be with you to support you throughout.
InsyaAllah,you'll be fine.



i just need that one single moment in life to start pondering about things.
important things.
this might sound absurd,but i guess i do need something to clear all the shits in my mind.

♥ 9:20 PM

yet you're just so far,like a distant star.



go days,fly by,go.
go disappear.
cause i don't want you here with me.

♥ 1:17 AM

honestly,it doesn't bother me,not even a tinge.so why should it bother you?
i guess jealousy can really make people do the things they shouldn't do.
or maybe not.

people people,i have better things to ponder and worry about than brooding about this.
i find it very silly.
and i don't see the point of fussing too much about this.
i'm never gonna make this ruin everything,every single thing and every single person that i have.
cause i know,words doesn't matter,as words sometimes don't mean a thing,as compared to the feelings we feel.
syg,whatever was thrown at you,you should know me better than to take everything in.
so,make your anger fade,will you?(though i know you will eventually)
cause whatever it is,expect me to know you better than others do.and to tell you the truth,i really do.
just take it that,not all people will have the same mindset as some.hence,the reaction.but it doesn't matter,though.
on the behalf,i'm very sorry it made you angry.i do understand what's with your fatigue adding to it.

and to some people,please be insensitive to others,can you?
sebagai seorang melayu,walau macam maner marah/jealous sekalipun,adat mesti ader,boleh?

♥ 2:26 AM

nothing beats than having the whole big family iftar-ing together.

♥ 10:44 PM

i tend to get tired easily this past few days.

♥ 5:16 AM

i don't feel at all good today.
i'm pissed.
i'm sore.
i feel like crying,but i couldn't.
almost bursting,but trying to hold back.



don't bother.
i won't entertain with my answers.

♥ 1:25 PM

not going to school yesterday made me even more lazier to go to school just now.
so,yes.i didn't.
anyway,i was still so lethargic from yesterday,and the thought of travelling all the way to NP just to waste some unnecessary time in the lab,was,mintak ampuunnn.

so,yesterday:
the two beautiful girls and their partners.
the breaking of fast at kampung ubi cc's pizza hut.
1st bully session by the couples(bestkan korg bully org mentang2 orang jadi lamppost.haha).
Mang and others joining at Tanjong Katong.
chilling at ECP(lovely).
After midnight ride to Changi Airport.
Scary Mary Blueberry speedy ride with the guys(very scary.pfft.)
2nd bully session by Manga.(thanks eh manga.mentang2 fidah takde.nak je aku cubit kau.hehe)
an aftermath sore face and sore legs.
Love,Love and more Love.

my thursday night was lovely and i couldn't ask for more.


haha.
and off to Geylang again tomorrow.
bleargh~



and ohmygee..i can't believe my sister's becoming a sick,naggy BIMBO.
stop it lah sissy.but i'll still love you anyway.awww~

♥ 8:13 PM

i am currently,very addicted to this song.
such a hearthrob.
okie okie,the singer is not the hearthrob(okay,maybe a bit?),but the song is.
the vocalist's voice is so freaking sexy i can just go "Awwwwww" the whole day and night.
hearthrob hearthrob hearthrob(okie enough!)
and don't you agree,it sounds like "Seperti Dulu" by Exists?
*nods head*

anyway,nothing interesting happened today,except for the fact that i had to do agar spotting in the lab.
lab lab lab lab.tak abis abis.
but it's okie though.
less than 3 more weeks to go.
(:

i've been procrastinating in doing the first draft of the FYP report.
it's supposed to be due this week,and i seriously have no idea what to even submit cause most of the experiments were not even done.coverslips technique?no results.PCR?sucky.Sequencing?15 isolates among 100 strains.agar spotting?have yet to be done.okie.why don't i just stop blabbering and prevent myself from filling up my pages with scientific nonsensical nonsense?
cause nobody will be least interested in them,anyway.
*scrap that away and pretend you didn't even read it cause if you did,you've just wasted 50 secs of your life reading my nonsense.*=p

the stomach has never been good this days.
prolly cause i've never had enough good nutritional food to devour on during buka.
it'll gets better.it'll gets better.

date out with lovely people later in the evening!
i've always loving it.
(:




now,oh where are you?

♥ 2:17 AM

To YOU:
Nothing.read:NOTHING,can ever affect me and my emotions in any way.
i love the life i'm leading now.
people,define CINTA?
i have my own definition to it,but i won't tell you,not now.





someone asked,'why do love have to be so complicated?'
haha.
i don't know why,but that question just sounds so cute.
(:

Labels: Love.Cinta.Sayang.

♥ 12:45 AM

i'm like on mid-air.
my head is heavy and my eyelids are half-closed.
i walked like a zombie.
and my body's aching.
oh no,the after effect of the lack of sleep.

poster presentation in the morning was,downgrading.demoralising.sucky.
screw rekha and her BIF questions.
i mean,come on,our project is something on isolating and identifying actinomycetes,and not about any bioinfo related stuffs.
screw BLAST and parameters and what have you.
i was agitated.
but looking on the brighter side,maybe all the comments and questions bombarded to us, cruely, can really help us to be even more well prepared for the final presentation.
so yeah.
that's that.

maybe i should just get some sleep now.
i've been cranky the whole day today,so pardon me.
i'm just not being me today.

rêves doux,aishah.



sometimes,i just wish i have my own gateaway.
to anywhere.alone.with company.whatever.
i just need a breather,more like a holiday.
dreams dreams.
bleargh~

♥ 4:21 PM

vain vain moments.(jendul mintak kene sepak!)

i don't quite believe in having Monday blues.
because everyday is a normal routine for me,and nothing's different.
my everyday and everything is just wonderful,eventhough there may be hiccups here and there.
i started off monday morning with the poster collection.(and lovely,thank you for accompanying me over the phone all the way from sengkang to bugis.)
met ash and lina over at bugis and honestly,we kinda did not know what was really in store for us.
haha.
daymn it was insane to find out that the poster was bigger than us.
much bigger than the whole 2 of me and ash combined.
but we didn't have any other choice but to just drag two BIG AO sized posters along with us from bugis all the way to np.
and we kinda looked like poster girls.
the wind trying to blow the poster away and us holding on to them.
stares in the mrt.
it was funny.
but that was something to laugh about to start our monday*told you i don't have any monday blues(=*
so now,with the posters kept in karen's room,we are all ready for tomorrow's presentation.
one burden down(:
and oh my gee..don't even remind me that the results are coming out soon.pfft.

anyway,today,my hair is kinda wavy.
i don't even know what i had done to it.
but i like it.
and that,gives me a slight idea of what to do for raya!
wavy wavy waves!
(:

so today,i'm left to buka with just daddy and one of the bro.
sedihlah kan.
pfft.
dah2 takpe2.let me just prepare the things to buka now,alright?
happy happy monday!

*bid goodbye and smile burger*





ps/darla dear,you've gotta move on sayang.no point holding on only to get hurt again and again.it's not worth it.and please don't ever let me see your tears flow over this.you deserve better things,babe.smile okie?and to you delilah,be ignorant,macam aku!hehs..sometimes it'll make you feel better..ily girls.(:

♥ 5:44 PM

sunday morning was spent cleaning out my closet and the whole room.
changed the bedsheet,wiped off the dusts,throwing junks,and i even stumbled upon so many old pictures of me and my family.

i miss those times when we were just little kids.
being mummy's and daddy's expensive little girls.
with those long curly locks,osh kosh b'gosh,occasional sentosa outings to the once water themepark Fantasy Island.
to the zoo,birdpark.
i wish i am still so little,still so fragile.
leading a happy kiddy life.
and no worries about anything.
*smile*

it feels so good to just sit at home after a whole week of spending your morning and afternoon in school or anywhere else.
watch tv,sleep,look up for new recipes to try,rearranging the stuffs in the closet again and again and again,online movie-ing.or whatever you can think of when you're at home.
i could just do this for the rest of the month,or even the whole year if i have the chance to.
but oh well.
FYP!!PLEASE HAVE MERCY ON ME!bleargh~

so now that papa and the lil kids are out,and left me at home all alone,i guess i should have the whole tv to myself.
no CNN,no ESPN,but just cartoons(since i can't watch any MTVs cos ehem,it's ramadhan).
so,selamat berpuasa and have a good sunday,peoplelets.((=





ps/now that i'm 20,i just think i need to learn some make-up tips.haha.memalukan betol tak tau pakai make-up.

Labels: apa itu cinta?

♥ 1:57 PM

life,is at its best.
well,except for the fact that there's lots more things to accomplish in a short period of time.
i can get really tired at one moment,and then pissed off at somethings at another moment,and i'll be laughing at other things the next moment.
it may sound complicated,but i guess that's just how the way it is.and i'm happy with each and every single things that had,or am coming my way.

and one thing for sure,the world is very small,indeed.(=

went geylang-ing just now.
and it was packed.
though i love the surrounding,i hate the crowd.
i can't really stand shovings and pushings.
and that's why,i love avoiding crowded areas.
but i might just go there again,you know.it doesn't kill to have great companies to be there with you.will just take your mind off those crowds though.

oh,and i really don't see the point of spending big bux,just for a 5% grade.
pfft.
really,some matters can really volunteerily get on your nerve at times.
another pfft.

i've decided to do something to my mane for raya.
curls?straight?
whatever it is,definitely,no more short short hair ohhh.

and oh boy.
you're greatly being missed,by me!
wonder when can i ever get to see you again.
very soon,perhaps?
(=

♥ 2:46 AM

sayang ini dua olang manyak manyak ohhh!

there's more to that where they came from.but as blogger doesn't really like pictures,i won't upload them here.and i just realised,no group pictures together!pfft!

and i realised,my cheeks are growing,again!after just one night of eating kfc like 'pelahap'.chubbycheeks chubbycheeks!fuyoh!okie enough.

so tomorrow,no lab.phew.just one day not being in the lab,makes me happy.

oohh.ymi.urgh.

♥ 10:33 PM

20th was AWESOME!

Thank you loves,for the buker-ing together2,the massive KFC meal which had kept me wondering why the amount when there were only three girls,the surprises,the choc fudge cake which i didn't managed to finish,the UNEXPECTED guests(very very lovely),the red rose(my very first hor=p),Marie Marie Marie(thank you sayang sayangs!),HUGS,Kisses,the 'i'm still am speechless gifts',ghost-story-telling,camwhoring,my girls,the guys,everything!

i wish i could just turn back the time to that moment again.
PRICELESS.
(=

♥ 11:51 PM

i could just spend the whole night watching the whole 4 seasons of Greys Anatomy at surfthechannel.
good stuffs.

intense days ahead.
i can just feel it coming.

♥ 9:12 PM