I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you..

i woke up in the morning,and saw that my hp's battery was FLAT.

♥ 8:51 PM

as much as i hate broccoli.i hate it when period takes control over your body.
you feel bloated,aches all over,headaches,cramps,sore and trembling legs,trembling hands,increasing and sometimes decreasing in eating appetite,mr pimples,sores,extreme tiredness,pms-ing and constant sleepiness.
i feel so helpless,hopeless..
okie sorry,i'm exaggerating.
BUT THAT'S THE FACT!URGH..
so people,don't think it's easy being a girl.
cause its equally tough too.
(=

i wish i could just pull my whole nose out and dig whatever's inside.
extreme mucus collection=sneeze sneeze=constant blocked nose which made you sound like minnie mouse=steamy eyes=headaches.
mannn.
so very the kecoh.
but no worries,i'll know how to deal with it.

been realising and pondering and discussing about lots of stuffs lately.
sometimes,changes are inevitable.
you can't expect things to just stay the way it is.
cause people change,things change,situations change.
things might just go out of hand,sometimes can even be so complicated.
and when you have made that decision,don't regret it.live with it.savour it as much as you can,and while you can.
just follow with the flow,and everything's gonna be alright.
hopefully.insyaAllah.

and oh,i had a horrendous nightmare yesternight!
i dreamt carrie gave away my sweet lil Marie,to someone for her birthday.
i wasn't pissed.
but i was sad.very sad.extremely sad.
until i don't even want to have my meals for a week straight.
in that dream,it was a great loss and nothing can ever replace that lil kitty.

oh Marie,how come you can be in my dreams.you notty notty kitty.
ps/she still have not gotten her bath yet,for like a year plus cause i've been procrastinating,so pardon me for her extreme dark fur when she should be white.=p

going for ash's sister's wedding in the evening,and i don't even know what to wear.
maybe i should just ransack everything in my wardrobe to find the right attire.
gah.

♥ 10:38 AM

second day back in the lab.
and i think we've achieved quite a few things.
i've done PCR for 98 samples in two days,and now my fingers are all swollen and sore from all the pipetting.
we've yet to do morphology,and i hope that's that.
cause i really can't take it any longer.
and i envy those who are almost done with their fyp.
oh well,actinomycetes project is such a grrr,cos it's neverending.

anyhoo..
part of my thursday afternoon and evening was spent with my darla!
we were supposed to search for a job,but ended up scanning bukit timah area.
and i finally know where island creamery is!
*jump for joy!*
and coronation plaza,king's arcade,crown plaza*ehem*,the ntuc at coronation,mad jacks.
okie,the list will go on so i have to stop.
sorry people,the effect of having jakun-ness running in the blood.
so anyway,we had good fun,going in and out of candy shops,gift shops,lingered around tuition centres to try asking for tutor vacancy but changed our mind after failing to figure out maths sums by ourselves.how pathetic.
and finally settling down at McDee at serene centre(oh,thank you dear lily for the direction)to have our usual heart to heart girl talk and drinks.
i had a great thursday,because i had great company!
thank you dear darla.let's do it again soon.ps:dempsey hill someday?(=

and yesterday's shisha session cum birthday celebration at Ambrosia with the '8 years' people was awesome.
everybody was there.
me,syaz,ir,ida,dina,ijah,jas,jas' hubby,nas,ewan,baqir and ezat the paparazi.
the ambience was nice,and we had the private lounge all to ourselves.
the food was okie,just okie cause it wasn't really to my liking.too exotic for my malay stomach.hehs.
lots of monthly catching up was done,were too caught up and i almost missed the very last train.
pictures will be up soon,and that is if i get my hands on any of them.
but thank you for the night,cause it made me miss those times when we were all in the same class together since we were 12/13 years old kiddos,watching each other grew up,up till now,where some of us all already in NS or even working.
i love you guys,alot.

note to self:3 more days to fasting.
sayer sukerrr!
((=

oh my,i'm still craving for a brownie.and you.hahaha.okie,shuddup.=p

♥ 9:29 PM

another beautiful morning at home.

and here i am,blogging away when i am supposed to be in Lt 24 for the fyp talk tingy.
and yes.
i am late.
nobody had woken me up.
and i,being so silly,had woken up at 6.15,but accidentally went back to sleep again after things are done.
and i'm so pissed with myself right now.
and i think i need food.

oh,i'm craving for McDonalds' breakfast.
it's been a long time since i had it.
Hotcakes.Hotcakes.Hotcakes.*drools*

okie,let's backtrack.
so,i need food.
and i'm still pissed with myself.
so,after shower,i decided to be random with myself,just to make myself un-pissed.
told you i'm so eccentric,well,at least i think i am. hahs.
i saw ayin's yellow flowery dress,and i tried it on.

i like it,but it's too short so you won't be seeing me in that thing,unless with tights or pants or what-have-you.and that's that.

so after taking that shot,i took that dress off,hang it back to where it came from,got dressed,and slumped myself into my nicely made bed,and decided to blog.

now,i'm feeling much better.
no more the supposed-ly pissed off me.
*phew*

okie.
so,i guess my tuesday's gonna be boring,except for the fact that i'm gonna meet lily later.
ayin's starting work today at Kumon,how lucky.
i wish i can just work too.
but just give in,and do mama a favour shall we?
i need to look after that lil bro of mine,since ayin's busy.
now,screw that lil kiddo!
haha.
okie,i'm nice,really.
i won't screw him.
(:

now.let me just stop here,and find something to get my hands on,something more beneficial.

ayez bonjour,people!
now go get yourself breakfast!
((=

♥ 10:13 AM

okie,let me just hit under covers again.how exciting.brr..good night,sweethearts.(:

lily.

Labels: eversince

♥ 8:15 PM

"I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."..

i guess the notebook is the greatest love story,ever.
will never get enough of it.
am never sick of it.
i guess it's a perfect love story,where the lovers eventually died in each other's arms at the end.

Excerpt from a letter from Noah to Allie: "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

it's wonderful,just to know and to feel how love is like.
it's that every little feeling which makes you want to look forward to each and everyday.
it makes a person stronger in a way.
and i can clearly recall this phrase a person once said to me,"loving is suppose to be a good thing.. it is not about feeling hurt and all.."
just truly amazing,how it can make a person really feel complete,and making trust,the key to everything.
oh love.
(:

now now,enough about the notebook.
(:

yesterday.wasn't supposed to be what i had wanted.
the call really shooked me real bad.
i hate it when it happened,especially to the ones so dear.
but things like that do tend to happen,and i couldn't say more.
no matter how naggy you want to be,but you just can't cause obviously it won't make anything better.
hehs.
do take care and get well soon,please.
ymi.

too many things to look forward to.
lepaking session with the senoritaz and co. at arab street,movie date with the lab girls,meet-ups with my girls,more dates and dates within this coming week!
and ramadhan's coming!
what more could i ask for?
alhamdulilah.
(:

and i realised there's too much smileys on my post this time.
haha.
sorry lah people.
i'm gay.
thank you,you.
((=

now,have a good sunday,people!
*smile wide wide*

♥ 4:59 PM

wet wet saturday.
and it's a good thing to coop yourself in your room.
especially when you have nothing else to do,but to just have your own time.

yesterday was perfect!
i had my very last paper,and it spells the word F-R-E-E-D-O-M.
and then was out the whole evening with mang,manga and fidah.
to dinner and HORTPARK(mang,a.k.a henderson waves eh..hahs)!
cool or whaatt.
i just love the place,but it gets so eerry when you walk further inside,especially when it was already 10 plus at night.
with the sounds of nature(agaknye lah eh)and large trees everywhere.
it was cold.

our aim was to find that henderson waves.
i think we had walked quite a certain distance but that waves was still too far.
i was dying.
we were too tired.
really tired to continue,what's with slippers and all.
gah!
next time then,and this time round,try it from vivo or harbourfront.
cause from what we know,its a shorter distance from there.
and when i got home,i was dead beat.
but people,thank you for the evening.
it was very fun,kan mang kan?
nyehahaha.
((=

not enough recuperating from yesterday's adventure,i was woken up early in the morning by the lil kids.
cause papa wanted to bring us out for breakfast,and then,we tour around sengkang and punggol,by nel,lrt and bus.
adoi.
i was already half asleep,but it was nice though,discovering new places.
especially as i am still a sengkang idiot.
chets.

and papa got me a new watch!
that's to replace the old broken-into-two-watch i had from papa too.
perhaps an early birthday present?
same design,but different colour.
i like it.thanks dear daddy(=
you're forever the best.

and dyla sayang,i'm sorry i couldn't be there for you yesterday.
i still do feel bad,you know.
but it's super nice to get to talk to you just now.
whatever it is,do remember that darla and i will always be with you.
and please,eat hokay.
or i'm gonna force you no matter what it takes.
*evil smile*
and my girls,let's meet again?
i just couldn't get enough.
(=

ps/2288.
beli 4D!haha!=p
misses,misses.and it was very lovely((=

♥ 6:16 PM

i guess it's better to just privatise my blog soon.

♥ 8:23 PM

flipping through the genomics notes,makes me sick as a sick kitty.
haha.
i was trying to understand them,trying very hard.
its a good thing the paper is on friday,so i'll have 2 and a half more days to mug for it.
(:

and while studying,i took the chance to camwhore.
haha.
sempat aja.
dah lamer tak buat gini eh.
but cause i was bored.
no brothers to entertain me,no sister to talk to.
everybody's out and i'm home alone.
faster people.come home quick!
gah!

and i hope somebody's date turns out just fine.
i can't wait to hear from you,darling.
(:

now,one issue to raise.i'm just letting out my thoughts only,so no offence to anyone.please girls.when you want to wear your tights,please wear them with something that covers your thang.cause seriously,even though you might think you look good like that,it's very unpleasant to be seen.it's not a nice fashion statement,you know.so please.

and this,reminds me of dance sports.
i miss going to dance sports session with darla during our year one SnW.
nyehaha.

now friday..come soon quick!
(:

♥ 3:43 PM

i was just about to reach hougang interchange when dyla called using darla's hp.
i was quite shocked at first cause i didn't expect her to call at that time.
and what's with that matter,i decided to detour towards woodlands to meet her and darla.
nevermind the distance though,cause i had to know what actually happened these past few days. and yes,i really need to be there for her.

and so,reached woodlands around 6 plus,met them girls and chilled at civics till we decided to have our late dinner after the session.
it was a time to be honest with each other,to catch up with what had happened,things i didn't know of.things that was kept from me all this while.
that 'drifting' moments from each other.
we finally let everything out.
i finally knew the reason.
and i seriously felt like strangling them both.
girls,just remember this,whatever it is,i'm still gonna know everything in the end,in any way which i will know.
so how?
don't ever ever keep those things from me again okie?
cause whatever happens,we'll still have each other,for now,forever.
that will never change.

and dyla sayang,now you really know how i once felt,and am still feeling now?
still angry with me?
or am i supposed to be the one to be angry at you now?
haha.
nah.you know,that's not me at all(:
but whatever it is,i'm still very happy for you.
look your best tomorrow okie?
and have fun!

friendship,the best thing in life,no matter what shits you've went thru together.(:

you know,i love you girls.






ps/i just seem to love the evening.wicked evening.more of it again,girls?*winks*

♥ 11:36 PM

i screwed up mallick's part of the paper,i think.
i should have predicted what was gonna be tested.
but oh wells.
at least rama's part wasn't that bad though.
no point pondering over it.

next on the list:MMB.
hope i can manage to scrap thru tomorrow,and i'll be left with one more paper before i can finally rest.

back to real hardcore mugging!

♥ 8:52 PM

sometimes,i wonder,what does it mean when they said,real friends.
is it the friends that you'll usually hang-out with most of the times?
the ones who's there for you when you need someone to talk to?
the ones who you won't get to see them as often as you want,but you'll know they're always there,but you don't realise it.
people might not even realised it but somehow,they will take the people around them for granted,and they'll soon start to realise it when everything's starting to drift away..fall apart.

somehow or rather,i'm still searching for the friends whom will always stick by me,through thick and thin.
maybe i know who they are,i've always known.
but like they said,nothing lasts forever,which in my context,is not entirely true.
it just takes a person to make wonders,and two to clap.

true and genuine friends are hard to come by.
they may look one,but you'll never know what to expect until a situation comes by one fine day and just smack you hard in the face,and you'll know who's really there for you.
and when i say really there for you,you'll know what i mean.
or perhaps not.anyway,i know it better myself.
maybe its true,it hard to please everyone,you know.
so,its time i should just learn to think for myself.please myself.if that's what it takes.
(:

oh,enough pondering!

somehow,i miss the friendships made in secondary school.
cause the peeps were the ones who taught me what's a real and true meaning of friendship.
from the adolescent days,to the present,they picked me up whenever i fall.
they'll know me like no other.
at times,you don't even know what to expect of you,but once when you're with them,you'll just blend in straight away.
and we'll always get comfy with each other instantly eventhough some of us might be busy until it'll takes more than a few months till the next meet up.
maybe,blame it on the growing up together part.
haha.
but,alhamdulilah.
and we're still going on strong for 8 years already.
somehow,i could really sense that we'll still be together even after everybody has bear children.
InsyaAllah.
hahs.
okie,stop it seh shasha.berangan je tau.

now girls,meet me real soon please?
((=

i just think i am in need of new clothes.
oh moolah.
i need you..
gah!

anyway,someone's getting a year OLDER today.
happy 19th,my once INAC lab partner,dhuhaha!
you're old,act like one.
basket.
haha.
(:

♥ 4:15 PM

saturday morning was spent with mama and the 3 lil kids,having our brunch over at bukit gombak,and accompanied mama all the way till her working hours at 2pm,and we left for home.

♥ 8:13 PM

Hello people!
haha.
my second try at blogging,and i'm quite pleased with myself cause i already know the tiny lil details about blogger,so,i wasn't lost while trying to change the blogskin,unlike the very first time.
and so,that makes me a happy kid((=

okie okie.
why the sudden urge to make a new blog,and blog?
i miss blogging lor.
and whatever mood i am in,i'll always resort to blogging,just to kill time,express my thoughts,rants about the mundane boring daily stuffs,and,to kill time.
hahas.

i know,at this time,i'm supposed to stick my head in my lecture notes,mug my brains out.
but i can't help it.
again,i miss blogging.
and i need to blog about something,anything,everything.
phew.

and and,19 more days to the big 2-0.
like woah.
how wonderful,NOT.
but like they said,it's just a number.
i'll still be the same old me,only a bit older,wiser and PRETTIER.
weewit!
nyehaha.
okie pardon me.
=p

and i can't wait till the end of the last paper.
*another BIG smile*
you know,i know,public dunno.
oh weeelllll..
((=

okie people,
let's get me back to studying.
i'll blog more,pretty soon,i promise!

till then,take care,oh beautiful people(:

♥ 9:17 PM